Oh, be still my heart. I have fallen in love with the book of Ruth, but it also aches my heart beyond words. Watching God's will and plan play out with Ruth, Naomi and Boaz is amazing- but it makes me a little jealous. It is easy to read a story such as this in the Bible and see God's work start to finish and be rejuvenated by the fact that God's plan is the most perfect and all done in His own time. But then we look at our day-to-day, 24 hours a day life- it does't seem to happen that fast.
I am going through a heart-wrenching-long-played-out breakup that ended by God's guidance. We were convicted that God wanted us separated for the time being and that if we were faithful and obedient, God may (or, let me honest-may not) lead us back to one another. It's hard. It sucks. I hurt. I want God to show me what the right timing is. I want God to give me the answers now. I want to know what directions to head. Oh, but how that is not the way it is going to be. One step at a time, God is doing work. I am so thankful for this study of Ruth. Knowing waiting time is going to produce God's very best for me. It's hard not knowing what that is, being faithful is not as easy as it is to build my anxiety- but faithfulness will produce the very best. He is redeeming and the outcome will be so perfect and sweet. Oh, Father- get me and my heart there in your time, with your plan. Sometimes, He uses frustrating circumstances, unwanted criticisms or disappointing delays to develop in me the good gifts of patience and humility. My ultimate good is His heart's greatest desire.
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